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Kara, I love you so very much. It's definitely odd typing this. I come on here to see you regularly, not that your pictures change (hint hint), but just to make the visit because I love you. It's odd, I cant be sure you will see this, yet I know others will, and so I guess in the end, this is for them and myself as a testament. So, to "them":
It just doesn't become better via talking to the night. I miss Kara and I love her as much as I ever did. The memory doesn't fade and honestly I pray it never does. In fact I don't like to share the memories as I find myself afraid that if I do, then they will no longer be mine (irrational maybe, but honest). However, at the same time, I want to ask people if they will send me pictures of her, yet am afraid to request it because it makes me feel vulnerable. I truly do miss Kara (not that others who post here don't) and still feel unsettled by the loss of her.
I have so many incredible memories of Kara and I relish in them. It's so masochistic seeing as the thought of you Kara is heart breaking and makes me run through every great memory, and then every permutation of what "could'a, would'a, should'a been".
I guess that after years of checking this site and not writing, I needed to just say I love you Kara Hood...truly.
I just love you.
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